Well, I got canned today along with the Chef and the other Sous Chef. I am so sick of the restaurant business, I don't think I am cut out for it anymore. The plan was to get a couple pay checks under my belt and start EMT training. That will be my primary focus now, to start the training so I can switch "careers". I can get a line cook position or work in catering , I should be able to make enough to make ends meet. The training only costs $1200 at the Seminole County fire academy. I just need to save or raise the $1200 and I can start the academy. If anyone who reads this blog would like to help out there is a donation button over there in the right. I normally would not ask for help, but I could use all that I can get. If I can get 24 people to donate $50 I will have enough to get in the door at the academy, books and gear are extra (but I don't think too much).
I can't help but to feel like a deadbeat, and a little worthless right now. I feel like a bad father... I know it's a little irrational to feel that way, but I can't help it. May be I was never really cut out for this business, and never realized it.
Pearl is doing more and more stuff that screams "I am a smart little girl". She knows what a duck says, and where her face parts are. I was dressing her today and she put her own legs in her pants. She is also starting to know the names of other things and is learning her colors too. I just wish she would start talking so we can have conversations...
Saturday
January 17, 2009 Part 2
Monday
January 12, 2009 (It's Been Busy Around Here)
A few days ago my Grandpa Vance suffered a stroke while opening presents in PA. He has spent the past few days in the hospital, most of which in the hospice ward. He was not getting better, and it was looking more and more like it was his time. Yesterday evening he died, quite peacefully I am told, and with people that love him. While Grandpa Vance was not my "blood" grandparent he had been in my life for a very long time, right around 29 years so pretty much my whole life. I am saddened that he never got to hold my little girl, but he did meet her when she was in her Mommy's belly though. I will not be able to make it up north for the funeral due to lack of money mostly, but also due to the lack of wanting to take time off of work. Waiting almost 3 months for a restaurant to open makes me not want much time off for a while, plus we need the money around here. Pearl, Kim, and I are here for any family that needs us, you know how to reach us...
Work has been going very well, starting to get busier and busier (bad economy my ass). We haven't even advertised yet, and we are getting business.
Speaking of the economy, seriously, they need to stop saying it's bad. If they started saying the economy is just fine I think people would start spending money again and then the economy would be fine, that is if it really is bad to begin with. Economics is a really confusing concept, I am convinced they made it that way to keep us down. Capitalism is just Feudalism re-packaged...
/rant
Thursday
January 01, 2009 (Happy New Year, hello 2009!!!)
I know I have let the blog go a little bit, you will have to forgive me I have been working quite a bit and have not had the time. The restaurant has been open now for 3 full nights, and I have worked 12 or more hours a day since Christmas. Last night was the true test of our crew, they did "ok" but there are definitely some issues to be dealt with. Everything was going great, running very smooth in the kitchen, that is until the hostesses sat over 60 people at once (and of course they ordered at the same time, fuck!). You can tell I was pissed, I don't swear too much on this blog (which is odd because I have a mouth like a sailor in RL).
We finally got the package from Nana and Bumpa yesterday morning before I left for work. We got them before 2009 at least, silly slow USPS, though I think it had a lot to do with the weather u north the past week or so. However, we did not open them until I got home from work because I had to leave shortly after they got here (and, Pearl was asleep anyway).
Here are some pictures, from all the gifts she received...
