January 17, 2009 Part 2

Well, I got canned today along with the Chef and the other Sous Chef. I am so sick of the restaurant business, I don't think I am cut out for it anymore. The plan was to get a couple pay checks under my belt and start EMT training. That will be my primary focus now, to start the training so I can switch "careers". I can get a line cook position or work in catering , I should be able to make enough to make ends meet. The training only costs $1200 at the Seminole County fire academy. I just need to save or raise the $1200 and I can start the academy. If anyone who reads this blog would like to help out there is a donation button over there in the right. I normally would not ask for help, but I could use all that I can get. If I can get 24 people to donate $50 I will have enough to get in the door at the academy, books and gear are extra (but I don't think too much).

I can't help but to feel like a deadbeat, and a little worthless right now. I feel like a bad father... I know it's a little irrational to feel that way, but I can't help it. May be I was never really cut out for this business, and never realized it.

Pearl is doing more and more stuff that screams "I am a smart little girl". She knows what a duck says, and where her face parts are. I was dressing her today and she put her own legs in her pants. She is also starting to know the names of other things and is learning her colors too. I just wish she would start talking so we can have conversations...